Lost approaching almost 100bucks on 21 , three cards and "ngao" . Boh huat dao lurh , at first the first three days (Saturday , Sunday and Monday) was bored , because the relative was gambling with SKILLS , and when it comes to Tuesday , I joined in Mahjong and dai di , which is my time to shine my skills back xD

I've won at the first place , then my father was unlucky , so when he started talking to me and asked " u okay ma li jie ? " I start to lose , tbh I pantang in this lololol . Because usually when my father is lucky , and when he starts talking to me , I have double the luck . But nvm , won all back in Mahjong but lost to other relatives in that three games . But anyway , lose till happy (: Unlike my bro , sou heng till die , lose money in dai di then put all the blame on me , with a serious attitude , like that then next time you no need to gamble la sh -.- Bu hui zuo ren you gei ren jia kan ni lian se , ba bai -.- (Ting if u see this , keep this as a secret)

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I've made a prayer to God yesterday for a wish , because it's my birthday . I pray to God for my grandfather , pray that he can stop suffering and live happily until the last second of his life . And today , around 2.36 , I've received a news from a brother upon my mum . I broke down . I regret for not visiting him on my birthday . I wanna see him so badly , talk to him , and see his smile . But it's too late . It's painful . Appreciate everybody beside u , especially the one that treats u well . Thank you God .

PS : my blog readers ( friends ) please keep this private and confidential which means secret if u saw this , I post this its only because I wanna express my feelings . Don't spread it out cause I trust ya'll . Thank .



Just nao on the way back while sitting uncle's car , saw an Indian small gurl , she's still studying in Primary form . And when I see her bag , so big and she's holding a spare bag on her shoulder , and the way she ties her hair , I suddenly think of me .

I was laik in the pic four years ago (standard six) Okay okay ignore my fat and ugly face , cause that was really me last time , with all hair tied up , braids on , with my big big smiley bag and a spare big bag on my shoulder . I was so good last time , the same boring routine everyday . Reach back home -> Bathe -> Eat -> Homework -> Sleep . I still remember I was nominated as the role student of the year award .

But nao , hoho , my life changed . I'm so lazy to do homework , not afraid of teacher , don't really concentrate in class , not really afraid of the school rules , lie and lots of excuses to teacher . Who never change , puberty ma xD

I sorta missed that life but nao , form 4 already , in SC stream really can't play play . Whud honeymoon year ? All really bullshit lo . So many homework to do , have to understand the concept too . From two tuition to six tuition , fml so lifeless =3=

Just feel laik updating my blog , but nao have to tidy up the house , bathe and start homework , I wanna cry >:( so bai bai :D

pimple pimple pimple pimple TRANSFORM ---------> fake dimple  with pimple

Envy piggy she went to Hong Kong but came back , with souvenirs , hahaha really welcome back la who cares about ur souvenirs , but doesn't mean I don't want  xD Sien first day no see u in school , WANTED to tell u bout my secret admire hahaha , see u on Monday (:

I need to buy a new phone . Loving Sony SL but weirdo encourage me to buy Samsung , but Samsung laik too common but function good till shit . If buy iPhone too expensive only piggy can afford (rich) . Whud to do ? DDD:

First day of school is sorta bored o.o Disappointed cause separated with 3D's besties ): And then the closest I am with in S3 is only Carmen , and the one I know well is Suet Ling . Cheng Lynn , Melissa , Ee-Shin and Trishia not so close . Yie Min actually wanna come s3 but FULL then mou duien duien one malay gurl came , follow race for buttocks meh ? -_- so sad gahh . But same class with piggy's boyfie and Onn Zaii . Can complain piggy to him d xD

Got homework to do , THIRD day only leh , sieeeeen ): Goodbaaaaaaai :D

The feeling when someone u love and care so much is maybe gonna pass away , I can feel his pain , I can .. With tubes all over his body , I can't help it , my heart aches so much . I don't want this to happened , God no . I don't wanna let him hear or knows that I'm crying but I can't hold my tears . He's been there for me when I'm down , he knows how bad I feel , he loves me and just within a few months , he became so weak . I know I shouldn't be so selfish because even if he has pass his critical mode , he'll suffer . I just can't let go . I can't sleep , I want to stay by his side so badly , whud if he can't make it ? I feel so guilty for not doing so well in my studies because I've promised to make him proud . I'm so miserable , I wanna use a knife to stab on my heart , it hurts so much , it does ......




1.03 nao , alone at night , so guess I can just update with a blog post , I guess ..
Alright , I'm stressed out with so many stuffs . When can I stop facing reality ? Drank a tin of beer , feel so calm , except that I feel laik puking cause I drank too sudden and fast . Stomach and ear is burning , start'in to feel sleepy , such a comfortable feeling . Work for 8 days , then stop for two days already , I miss working seriously . I don't know whai I just can't spend my time empty with TV and games only . Either study or work , that's all . I can't stand such a lifeless life . Well I'm also wondering what the heck is happening to me , haha . It's funny to have this type of life cycle . Been through so many different sorts of experiences this year . And so sorry Lee Ting for the late reply in twitter , I know u hate it . Sorry |:

Ah I miss this guy name Rits , LOL he so handsome and helpful and cheerful . He's not the type of those lala , aha dream guy ! :DD But too bad he doesn't belong to me , SAD CASE AW ! But at least I got his number and he deh-ed me hahahahahahha think also tou xiao xD

And hey , gotta sleep , accompany my grandparents to IJN tomorrow , night (:




拜二早上起到来脚断手断唯一没断是肥肉，凄凉-_-可能是不够睡吧那整天都要死不死的感觉，然后下午睡了个2个小时半的午觉，害到我十一点上床两点才睡的着。

今天六点就起来，4个小时觉，HAIH 凄凉 啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！陪外公去沙登医院，因为我的不醒目，早上发生了很多很鱼很bekcek的东西。

回到家睡觉，起到来看电视，Gaolat 每天都将 lifeless =.=

LeeTing 你看起来很emo, 不要将，看不惯，cheer (=
Bai !
new past