The feeling when someone u love and care so much is maybe gonna pass away , I can feel his pain , I can .. With tubes all over his body , I can't help it , my heart aches so much . I don't want this to happened , God no . I don't wanna let him hear or knows that I'm crying but I can't hold my tears . He's been there for me when I'm down , he knows how bad I feel , he loves me and just within a few months , he became so weak . I know I shouldn't be so selfish because even if he has pass his critical mode , he'll suffer . I just can't let go . I can't sleep , I want to stay by his side so badly , whud if he can't make it ? I feel so guilty for not doing so well in my studies because I've promised to make him proud . I'm so miserable , I wanna use a knife to stab on my heart , it hurts so much , it does ......
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